Sunday, April 24, 2016

Sunday Funday V.1

First order of business, waking up. Can I get through one cup of coffee before someone needs me?

This stinker had an upset stomach all day long. She finally rested and had some dinner. She isn't allowed to do that again for at least another ten days.

I had to get my claws done before vacation. Can't go to the beach with ratchet toes.

Jeremy did a lot of manly things today. Even got on the roof. 

We are counting down to the new season of Game of Thrones! Mantra for this season: "Must not love any of the characters". Will you be watching?

Saturday, April 23, 2016

I define myself

"Infertility is a heart-wrenching, faith-questioning, relationship-testing, life-altering experience."

National Infertility Awareness Week is April 24th - 30th. I don't normally like to bring up my infertility. It's not that I want to hide it, really. Or pretend like it doesn't exist. Mother Nature makes sure I get a reminder every month. I just feel like talking about something like this all of the time gives it too much power.

My infertility is just a small part of who I am.

There was a time I let thoughts of it consume me. My infertility ran our lives for a little bit there. There were a lot of doctor visits. A lot of blood draws. A lot of tests. A lot of living by a calendar and forced intimacy. And two surgeries. One planned, in which I discovered I have Endometriosis, and one not planned, in which I had an Ectopic pregnancy.

There were a lot of tears. A lot of negative pregnancy tests. A lot of anger. And a whole lot of confusion. I was mad at God. Mad that He deprived me of my motherhood. Mad that He deprived my husband of his fatherhood. Mad that He robbed my mother of her Grandma-hood. I was confused about how our marriage was going to continue without becoming parents. I mean, what else was there other than parenthood?

But, I finally let go of all my doubt and fear and anger and started trying to figure out who I was going to be as a childless woman.

Having a very supportive spouse and family has helped. Everyone has been very understanding of my decision to stop seeking further infertility treatments. Jeremy has been a saint through everything. He has always supported me 100%, no matter what I wanted to do.

It's helped that most everyone has stopped asking why I don't have kids yet. I forgive any new people I happen to meet. It's normal for people to ask about kids when they are getting to know someone. But even they usually leave it alone after the very normal 'So do you have kids?' and I respond with 'Nope, but I have a bunch of pets'.

And speaking of pets......having pets is a very rewarding alternative to having kids. Honestly, they make us feel like a family. They are our family. We are a family. I HAVE a family.

I don't like living my life always wanting things I don't or cannot have. There really is no point and it's a waste of energy. Instead I focus on the things I do or can have.

I do have a wonderful husband who is the love of my life and very best friend. I have a beautiful love cottage filled with things that make me happy. I have pets that look at me with pure love and trust.

I can fill my time with whatever passion or hobby I feel like without feeling guilty. I can sleep in as late as I want on the weekends without feeling guilty. I can spend all day reading a good book (or two) without feeling guilty. I can spend my money on things I want without feeling guilty or worrying about paying for college. I can watch movies with sex and swearing...any time I want.

What I'm getting at is I know mommy-hood is great, but I've come to realize that not being a mommy is great too.

Yes, I am childless. But my infertility is not who I am. Me infertility is only a part of my story.

Friday, April 22, 2016

The things I do for beauty

I finally got around to using the Laneige Water Bank Soothing Mask that came in the Target Beauty Box my friend Jonessa sent me. This mask comes in two pieces..for your upper and lower face. I think this design really helped with the 'non-slip' aspect. It really did stay in place. And I was even doing squats while watching House Hunters as I wore it. It didn't budge.

It is super hydrating. Even after I took it off and massaged any excess into my skin, my face felt very soft and dewy. Per, "The mask is formulated with Biogen Technology, which activates and increases the skin’s Natural Moisturizing Factor levels to prevent future moisture loss and maintain adequate hydration". Last summer, my sister treated me to a day at the spa. The Esthetician told me that my flaky areas were due to dehydration....AND my oily spots? ALSO from dehydration. Basically most of my skin issues are due to the fact that my skin is under-hydrated.

At $24.00 for five masks, I'd say it's worth it to treat yo' self...and your face.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

My First Ever Target Beauty Box

I was having the absolute WORST day yesterday until I got home to find this waiting for me.

My friend, Jonessa, has some type of radar that let's her know just when I need something to make me smile. She sent me this Target Beauty Box to help keep my blogging vibes going. Always looking out for me, that one.

From what Jonessa told me, you can order the Beauty box here. They are usually less than $10 and the shipping is free. But they are limited and once they are gone..they are gone (until the next one). So you have to keep an eye out and order it quick.

I decided to try out a few of the items last night before I got into bed. As I dabbed on the Maybelline Dream Velvet Foundation (my sample came in Classic Ivory), my husband says to me, "You don't need any of that. What did you do..cover up some freckles?". {insert Heart Eye Smiley emoji here} I really liked how easy the foundation went on, it was light enough not to be cakey or heavy, but serious enough to cover up..well..freckles..and sunspots..and small blemishes.

So, I went from clean faced to polished (honestly, I think Classic Ivory might be a shade too light for me)....and THEN I added the COVERGIRL Colorlicious Lipstick in 'Succulent Cherry'. Oh...dear readers...I know there are women out there that can pull off red lipstick (like my sister) but I am not one of them. I don't really know how simply adding the wrong shade of lipstick can age someone a gazillion years...but it did. The lipstick did have a nice feel to it, but I don't wear much makeup and when I do I'm really a lip gloss kinda girl.

To clean all that mess off I used the Simple Cleansing Facial Wipes. I already use Simple Protecting Light Moisturizer on the daily, so I'm familiar with the brand. One wipe took everything off my face (including the lipstick and it didn't leave an awful taste behind) and left it feeling clean and smooth.

Lotions and ointments are a little harder to review right away. The true test is always how the work over time.  The CeraVe Healing Ointment, is a lip balm consistency, and the little sample pot it came in makes it great for throwing in your purse or keeping it at your desk. It immidiatly made me think of my cuticles, because they are always very dry. This ointment would be great for rubbing on your fingernails and around your nose when you have chapped skin. The Marlowe No. 022 Body Butter was a little oily when I put it on my hands but once it dries its good. It has a scent and I was racking my brain trying to place smells like a office bathroom air freshener. Take that as you will.

I used the Pantene AIRspray Hair Spray this morning. I took a picture of my hair freshly done and then later in the afternoon. I can't say that the spray really helped hold the curl, it looks about the same when I don't use anything. BUT, I did like that the Hair Spray did not make my hair stiff or sticky AND it did not stink. I'm going to try it again when I'm putting my hair up.

The only other items I haven't tried yet are the Laneige Water Bank Soothing Mask and the Hawaiian Tropic Island Sport SPF 30 Lotion. The sheet masks kind of freak me are so weird! It says it is suppose to be "non-slip".....we shall see. I'm saving the sunscreen lotion for our vacation. What better place to test it out than the beach, right?

This box was $7.00 for eight good size samples (that are way more than a one-and-done application), so I'd say they are well worth the money. Jonessa also says you can "like" the Krazy Coupon lady on Facebook or check the Totally Target website for a heads up on these boxes (and y'all are gonna want to listen to her).

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Have a seat at my table

Let's talk dining room tables. I've been scrolling through Pinterest until my thumb aches, looking at beautifully decorated dining rooms. I've had a hard time finding inspiration because the majority of pins are geared towards formal dining rooms OR people with much more space than me. But if I search 'small space dining room', I'm flooded with eating spaces for tiny homes (like under 1000 sq. ft. tiny homes).  Here is the closet pin I found to match what I see in my mind:

So, I'm trying to piece together my own inspiration.

Our dining area is actually in our kitchen. I guess you'd say we have an eat-in kitchen. For as long as we've lived in this house we have had the same pedestal table with matching chairs. I'm rather in love with the table other than the hunter green base. It has a wood stained top and a drop leaf that folds into the table. I'd love to keep it and maybe re-paint the base to something lighter...white or the whatever blue we pick for the lower cabinets.

Now the chairs on the other hand. I can take them or leave them. They have the same wood stained as the table on the seats and the back and legs are the hunter green. So I could technically repaint the hunter green parts on them as well and just be done with it (which I still might do). OR, I could buy some new chairs. These are a few that have caught my eye:

I could go super modern on the chairs. Mix the traditional pedestal table with something much funkier. I really love the look of these chairs but I'm undecided about the practicality of them. We use our dining room table for much more than eating. It's like our hobby table as well (as you can see from the photo above), and I'm trying to imagine sitting for hours in one of these chairs (even though the reviews mention how comfortable they are).

I could keep it more traditional, but updated with an X-back dining chair. I like the different color options on this chair. I like the rattan seat as well.

I haven't quite decided which way I want to go. I guess I should probably talk it over with the husband (since he hasn't seen any of these pictures until now) and get his input.

I've also been looking at lighting. We have three different lightening set ups in our kitchen. We have the "chandelier" that goes over the dining room table, the main light that goes over the galley kitchen, and the task lightening over the sink. We have beautiful Tiffany-inspired light fixtures right now. As lovely as they are, they tint all the color coming out of them in a yellow hue. Against the yellow of the walls my kitchen has never been what you would call 'bright'.

So, I'm ready to lighten things up.

Right now we have a single flush-mount fixture in the kitchen. I want to update it with an "island" lightening. This will be all in the scale. I want something with multiple lights, but my kitchen can't handle a huge light fixture.

I like both of these fixtures. In one of the reviews on the top fixture, the customer actually removed the rounded bottom of the cage, so it was more like an open basket. That is always an option. Each of these will really rely on how close we can get them to the ceiling (there are no cathedral height ceilings here).

I like both of these for over the sink. They are pretty similar, so I think it's going to be easier to decide on the task lightening.

And then, the dining room "chandelier".  I looked at a lot of light fixtures. The range of chandelier styles kind of boggles my mind. It was easy to get drawn into the larger, more elaborate chandeliers. But I had to keep reminding myself of the space I was shopping for and the style I was trying to achieve. And I think I found the perfect thing.

It's simple. But stylish. It's not too large and has clean lines. I like that it won't interrupt the view of the room, but it's still eye-catching.
So what do y'all think of mix-and-matching chairs and tables? Do you like all of your chairs to match in style in color?

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

"I love your top"

I can't even tell you how many compliments I received on my new Skies are Blue top from my Stitch Fix box. And the majority of them were from people who do not read this blog and had no idea what Stitch Fix was. I educated them all, of course. My friend Rhonda, who does read this blog (Hi Rhonda) told me that the pictures of this top don't do it justice. A woman standing behind me in line at the cable office asked me if the 'cold shoulder' style was comfortable because she was seeing a lot of it in her Neiman Marcus advertisements. Something about this top really makes people stop and take notice.

I'm really glad I decided to keep it. It isn't anything I would have picked out myself while shopping, so I'm glad my stylist sent it to me.

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Sunday, March 27, 2016

Sunday Funday

I couldn't wait to wear my Dear John shorts today! It's just a little cool outside so I threw on my favorite cardigan and I'm ready to relax the day away.

Happy Easter, everyone!
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