Okay, Okay, OKAY!

So, if you know me you probably know that my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for years. I'm talking yyyeeeaaaarrrssss. It just hasn't been happening for us. I don't blog about it much. What is there to say, really?

Dear blog, Not pregnant.

Dear blog, Still not pregnant.

Dear blog, You guessed it..

We sort of put it on the back burner for a bit. In any infertility journey, there comes a point when you have to decide if you want to continue with the treatments as they get more and more invasive and more and more expensive. Together we decided that we didn't want to continue, at that point. So we stopped everything. All the doctor visits, all the tracking of anything, EVERYTHING. It all stopped.

Instead we focused on each other, and ourselves. We lost weight. We traveled some. We ENJOYED being a childless couple, instead of letting that fact bring us down.

But, recently we have both been feeling like it might be time to start trying again. Nothing major, just using some at-home tools to help us track my cycle. I know that sounds so strange, but for those of you that have been trying to get pregnant, you'll know exactly what I'm talking about. I have some things working against me. I still have endometriosis..and always will. One of my tubes has been damaged, so technically half the factory is closed. But, I have some things working FOR me this time around. I've lost a lot of weight. And where my cycle use to be...non-existent..it is now like clock work. That's a good thing, when you are trying to get pregnant and consistent cycle is like GOLD.

Years and years ago I bought the Clear Blue Easy Ovulation Kit. I used it, and for the most part it would tell me I had ovulated. But there were lots of times that it would never indicate a PEAK time...meaning I might not have been ovulating back then. The little gadget has been in a bathroom drawer for this time we were on hiatus. I brought it out to start this months cycle and BAM!..it worked just like it was suppose to..high fertility to peak fertility and back down again. A beautiful thing! I hope it stays that way (OR I can get pregnant, I'd take that as well).

So there you go. That's what's going down. Sorry to get into some of the more sordid details of trying to have a baby. It's a freakin' miracle that anyone EVER gets pregnant. Geez!