My Postsecret

This isn't the only postcard I have sent in over the years, but it's the only one that was put on the website (which I'm totally OK with). It was on the Postsecret.com website back in 2006.

That was a pivotal time for me. I was lingering up there near my highest weight but I was tired of not liking myself. I was ready to finally embrace my body as it was. That didn't mean that I still didn't want to lose weight, to be healthier, but I had to show myself some love for where I was right then. I was getting ready to do a wardrobe overhaul because I was tired of wearing the fat girl uniform. I was tired of not caring enough about myself, as I was, to even bother to look fashionable or the best that I could look. So I had collected some catalogues for some fashion forward plus size stores. Granted, the price of these clothes were a lot higher, but I was ready to make the investment in myself. Now, the clothes were just an outward reflection of the change that was happening inside me. I had gone for so long without even bothering to pay myself any attention because I always thought I would do it when I was skinnier (even though I did nothing to work towards that goal). But I finally realized that being bigger was not the end of the world. Sure, it wasn't ideal..not always fun..not healthy...but STILL not the end of the world.

And now, five years later, I'm still investing in myself. Loving myself for where I am. No longer plus sized, but normal sized. Embracing my womanly curves and softness and thigh dimples and stretch marks. I still stand by my postsecret. But now I'd much rather be healthy than be fat.