Lists. Stuff. Panic.

It always seems to happen about this time of year. My head becomes a hurricane of thoughts. I can't seem to control it or contain it. Usually, when my head fills up with thoughts to the point of giving me a headache, making lists helps. But not when I'm like this. I've made lists, and sub-lists. But they are just lists. The things on those lists aren't getting done. *panic, panic* I have to tell myself to just breath. Relax. It's not the end of the world. *breath, breath*

I've been thinking a lot about Christmas. Which probably has a lot to do with it. I try to plan ahead so that I don't feel like this at Christmas time. Sometimes it works, usually it doesn't. *breath, breath* I think about Christmas cards, and who will get them, and who will care if they don't. We didn't even DO Christmas cards last year, and although no one said anything about it, it really bothered me. So, I'm trying very hard to get it together for this year. My Christmas lists are started, in my head at least. Maybe if I buy a little something here and there it won't be such a rush to get it done in December? *Sigh* I can hope right?

And the writing. The writing is making me mad. I have so much of story swirling around in my head. Now, along with the first book I've started I have an idea for another. I'm trying to write stuff down for both as it comes to me. Sometimes my mind is locked on just one of them, and so I write. Or I'll see something or hear something that I want to try and add in, so I write..or at least jot it down. Sometimes I feel like I could sit here at this computer and type, type, type. But other times I sit here and stare at the screen. Its there, in my head, it just won't come. And its times like those I wish I had a laptop. Then maybe I can change my scene a little. Get in bed..and write. Sit on my back patio..and write. Lay down on the couch..and write. At least that's the way I THINK it would happen. I've never owned a laptop, so I don't really know. But getting one is on my list...on one of them, anyways.