Monday, March 24, 2008
Never mind the moody woman behind the curtain..
"At the end of the day, a loving family should find everything forgivable."
I'm having a hard time putting this post down. I have tons of thoughts in my head right now but I can't seem to come up with a way to put them in order, or what to edit as not to offend anyone that might read this. I don't have the intention of stepping on any toes. What I am feeling right now stems more from inside of me than from outside of me.
Lately, I feel like I am lacking. Just lacking and dull.
When I re-connect with someone I haven't spoken to in months they always ask, 'So what's been going on with you?' My answer is always the same:
'Same old, same old'
But I'm not kidding. It's really nothing. To the point of being boring. What do I have to talk to people about? I live in the same house, I have the same number, I have the same job, same husband, same car, same problems. Nothing changes. It's always the same.
We paint walls, change the decor in our house, to try and help me and this issue I have with being boring. It helps for a little bit, but never for long. I have a steady, good paying job. We have a very cute home. I have a happy marriage. I should feel successful, accomplished, content.
So what's wrong with me?