Monday, October 15, 2007
Being Me...what does that mean?
“We're constantly being told what other people think we are, and that's why it is so important to know yourself.” ~ Sarah McLachlan
While wondering the mall, my husband and I decided to browse through Hot Topics. My husband went for the t-shirts and I just poked around. I came across the hair coloring products and a ring of hair color samples. I playfully put them up to my hair and asked my husband if he thought I would look good in any of those colors. He said that the hot pink suited me and the crazy idea of trying it out stuck in my head. Now, at first the idea started with semi-permanent highlights..just something I could do myself at home. No bleaching or anything involved. I was wishy-washing the idea and decided to enlist the help of my younger, spunker sister..who would surely be all for helping me try this out. The thing is that she WASN'T all for it. Instead she told me why she thought that pink highlights wouldn't suit me at all. It's not part of my personality, she had said, just not something she could see me doing. I was a little flabbergasted.
I know I have a routine about my life, and I do enjoy it to some extent. However alot of the routine has come more from necessity then wanting it to be this way. So, I might not be the image of what others think of when hot pink hair is brought up. But does a person have to act a certain way in order to take part of funky hair coloring? Or outlandish tattoos? Or body peircings?
I guess I am struggling more with the idea that people might not perseve me as I perserve myself. Even thought I might not be up for a last minute movie I am still lively and enjoy being different and out there. Just because I have never colored my hair a fun color before doesn't mean I haven't thought about it. I struggle with the idea that I might be 'too old' for that. What exactly is the age limit for coloring your hair hot pink? And do I have to start staying out late every night? Hitch-hiking to rock concerts?
I've decided that I'm going to try the hot pink hair anyways. But now, instead of just home done highlights, I'm going to my hair lady and having my hair bleached out and a permenant color put in. It's just hair after all..its one of the few things in my life that I can change and know that it can always go right back if I want it to.